Peace of My Heart

An encouraging voice to drown out the noise

~I Am Not Cut Out For This~ October 4, 2013

Ever have one of those days where you are pretty sure you’re not getting anything right?  You are actually fairly certain that you are doing everything wrong.

Welcome to my Friday.

I just returned home from unloading the majority of my brood and I am completely exhausted.  How is this possible you say when I’ve only been up for 3 hours….children.  I have children.

I’m not sure about the rest of the population, but my little blessings can sometimes make me question my sanity.  We have the exact same routine every morning and yet they seem to suffer complete amnesia within each 24 hour period.  Today was no exception.  Mix in short-tempers, whiney pants and sleep deprived momma’s and you get disaster of epic proportions.

I came unglued.  I did not allow myself a pause before I reacted.  I let my mean girl out and she brought her “A” game.  And then I felt guilty.  So, like any good Jesus-loving momma would do, I gathered my kiddos into a circle in the living room.  I told them I don’t care if we’re late, we are going to hash this out right now.  I explained that this was no way to begin our day and we prayed that God would soften our hearts to one another in the mornings.  After all, we are in this together, aren’t we?

No sooner had I said amen did I realize 5 year old daughter is crying.  “What’s wrong now?”  “I MISS DADDY!!!”


So, today I am thankful for God’s mercies which are new each day because I am pretty sure I empty that cup daily.  I am thankful that this day is Friday and if Jesus loves me even a little, (and I know He does), I along with all my children will sleep-in tomorrow morning.  I am thankful that my family is resilient and forgives me my shortcomings when I admit I am wrong.  And I am thankful for the Daddy that my daughter cries for when Mommy has lost her mind.

Happy Friday, friends.  Hope my manic ranting has brought you some comic relief on this lovely Fall day.  Please enjoy the advisory poster below, brought me a good laugh just when I needed it.

mommy chart



9 Responses to “~I Am Not Cut Out For This~”

  1. Julia Tomiak Says:

    Valerie, you are SO not alone! I’ve started telling my children that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again even if you get the same result. Why do we have to remind them, morning and night, to brush their teeth? Good for you to pull them into prayer. I hate it when I let myself get unglued- because then I have to apologize- again. But I think it’s important that they see this vulnerability as well as our acknowledgement of guilt and request for forgiveness. Thank goodness we have a merciful Father to guide us. Have a great weekend.
    And I LOVE your picture. I’d like to print it up and hang it in the kitchen. Will settle for Pinterest for now.

    • Some days the only thing that gets me through is knowing, without a doubt, that another momma is fighting the same battle as me! I always regret coming unglued myself, but as you said, it’s a good way to model repentance and forgiveness.
      I hope you all have a great weekend as well. Maybe we both should hang this poster in a high traffic zone. I know my hubs would appreciate fair warning on what kind of day I’ve had with the kids!

  2. Happy Friday to you too, fellow momma!

  3. Valerie, if nothing else positive comes out of your day, I have to say you made my day! Belly laughing! Please know I am not laughing at you, just your circumstances and remembering back about 30 years ago when that was me! I love the Mommy advisory and would have loved to have had it back in the day! Thank you for your honesty, transparency and surrender to Jesus. What a wonderful example you are to your kids. Love you! 🙂

  4. Betty Billingsley Says:

    Love your message and way to go with your kids. They are wonderful because you are a mommy that cares.

    • Thank you, Betty B. I do think my kids are pretty awesome. There are days I question my abilities to parent them, and yet they still seem to do ok in spite of me! Have a great weekend 🙂

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