Here lately I have found myself in a place that I really don’t care to be, trapped in my own mind, consumed by what our future holds. I’ve been running possible scenarios through my head. “What if this or that happens? Then what do we do?”
When I looked at my calendar, I would skim over the list for the day and then spend a great deal of time stressing over what was coming up for the remainder of the week.
Even house work had become counterproductive. I would flit from room to room accomplishing nothing.
Scatterbrain-initis….it’s a disease, I am sure of it. But I am lucky enough to be blessed with friends that remind me of what the cure is.
Sunday, a sweet sister asked to pray for me. While she prayed, she asked the Lord to give me what I needed for each day, and that’s when it clicked. I had been wasting precious time every day focusing on the next day, week and sometimes even the entire month in advance.
In the Lord’s prayer, we are told to pray “Give us this day our daily bread,” I believe that applies to more than just food. Every morning I should be asking God to meet my family’s physical needs, yes, but I need him to meet my emotional and spiritual needs as well. My prayer time needs to include asking him to equip me with the grace it takes to handle all of the life happening around me. Wisdom would be nice when faced with challenging momma moments, so I should probably be seeking that too. Then I need to say amen and trust that the Lord will sustain me and my family for that day without fear of what the next day will be like.
I came across a quote that really got my attention:
“What will defeat you if you let it, is not all the things you worry about, but all the worrying itself.” -Brian Vaszily
I don’t want to live defeated. God has said that I am more than a conqueror through him who loves me and worry is robbing me of that gift.
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
(Matthew 6:34 The Message)