Peace of My Heart

An encouraging voice to drown out the noise

~My Heart Knows, It’s My Mind That Needs Convincing~ January 27, 2015

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I am currently training for my first, (and quite possibly last), half marathon. Myself and two lifelong friends from high school have made a vow to endure this together. The difference is…both of them have ran at least one before so they have the advantage of knowing they can do this. Lucky for me, one of the two is a local girl so we are logging our miles together which makes it a pretty awesome experience. The third musketeer lives at the location of our upcoming race so we are keeping up with her training via text.

Yesterday we were chatting about the long runs we have pending and the fact that I have never ran more than 7.5….ever. Her encouragement, “Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Mind over matter.” Sounds simple enough but it was what I needed to hear. I train consistently and make proper fuel a priority so my body is able but my mind tells me otherwise.

In the same way that I am making preparations for this race, I prepare myself for the work I do in ministry. I pray, I read God’s Word, I seek counsel. My heart is full of God’s love and I feel ready. Then my mind chimes in and has me second guessing.

My mind will tell me that I’m not smart enough because I don’t have a college degree.

My mind will tell me I’m too young for people to have any faith in my abilities to lead.

My mind will tell me that my past isn’t really forgiven, by God or anyone else for that matter, and with that looming all around me, I can’t be an effective witness.

But my heart. My heart believes that God can use anyone who is willing. I can feel His strength when I step out in faith. I lean on the words of Zechariah 4:6, “Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of hosts,” believing that my shortcomings are no matter to God.

While my heart is confident, my mind can always use some tweaking. Like most of you, my thoughts can get a little crazy and I find myself wasting precious time essentially arguing with myself. It’s time that I take captive those detrimental thoughts and replace them with encouraging Scripture.

“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.” (1Peter 2:9 ESV)  

Yeah, that one ought to do it 🙂jeremiah 29

 

~My Testimony is More Powerful than Yours~ April 4, 2014

We all know at least one person who had the seemingly perfect childhood and that idealistic life has apparently followed them into adulthood.

  • Their parents have been married all their lives.
  • Growing up, they went to church every time the doors were opened.
  • They did things in the right order-marriage then sex and babies.
  • No substantial loss has ever crossed their paths.

Basically, they’re life would be described as smooth sailing.

So how is it, exactly, that someone who has walked through this life to date completely unscathed supposed to be able to effectively minister to someone?  Because our testimony should be more about the glory of God and His hand in our lives than it is about the struggles we’ve been through, or lack thereof.

Yes, I came from a “broken” home.  Yes, I had a child out of wedlock.  Yes, I struggled with an eating disorder.  Yes, I lost a baby and it broke my heart.  Yes, I was a hot, hot mess and this is only a couple of highlights from a long list of issues.

All of this may be true of the life that I have lived, but when I share with others about my trials, my focus is on God and how He walked me through each and every one and ultimately gave me the victory.  Here is my point:

Don’t discredit someone else’s testimony just because their story doesn’t seem as traumatic as yours.

Each and every one of us has a unique story that when told will minister to different people.  A lot of people can’t possibly relate to what I’ve overcome because they can draw no parallels to my life.  Those people need to hear from you.  Even if you feel as if you have nothing to offer because for the most part, your life has been sunshine & roses, maybe that’s exactly what someone needs to hear….that you don’t have to come from brokenness to live a life on fire for God.  By sharing our individual stories, together, we can reach the far corners of the world for Jesus.  single testimony

“Make sure in your hearts that Christ is Lord. Always be ready to give an answer to anyone who asks you about the hope you have. Be ready to give the reason for it. But do it gently and with respect.” (1Peter 3:15)

“My hope is, in you Lord, all the day long.  I won’t be shaken by, drought or storm.  A peace that passes understanding is my song and I sing, my hope is in you Lord.” -Arron Shust lyrics, My Hope Is In You

 

~Graduate~ May 31, 2013

graduationThese last couple weeks have been full of major milestones in the lives of our children.  First we had Emma’s preschool graduation, time for big girl school!  Then my beautiful step-daughter, known around here as Kiki, graduated from high school.  Next up were the two 5th graders, Peyton & Autumn, who celebrated their final year of elementary school with a promotion ceremony.  We small town Southerners like to celebrate every step!

Each program was different but they each held the same theme.  It’s time to move forward.  The kids were encouraged to leave the things of their previous years behind, to use them as a learning experience and to embrace what their futures held for them at the next stage of life.  It was funny to me how the same message could apply to a 5 year old, 11 year olds and a 17 year old!

Then I got to thinking how we go through many “graduations” in our lives; again, the message often being the same.  When we move through the various stages of our lives, we have to leave behind the former things and focus on what’s to come.  However, we become so consumed by things of our past, that our present is neglected and our future seems nonexistent.

While we are young, we can make the mistake of living a care-free life, using the excuse that we are young and just want to have a good time before the responsibilities of adulthood kick in.  Scripture warns us:

“Don’t let the excitement of your youth cause you to forget your Creator.  Honor Him in your youth before you grow old and say, “Life is not pleasant anymore.”

(Ecclesiastes 12:1 NLT)

As we get older and make the common mistakes that teens and early twenty-somethings often do, we can allow the shame and embarrassment of those mistakes to haunt us.  We can become gripped by fear that someone from our past will pop-up in our present and cause those in our lives now to look down on us with disdain.  Don’t worry, there is a Word for that too:

“Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth…”

(Isaiah 54:4 NIV)

Now you’re an adult and you’ve blown it big time.  You had a child out of wedlock, you’re divorced, you filed bankruptcy, you had an affair…this list could rattle on forever.  You are so wrapped up in the mistake that you made that the future looks dim at best and insignificant at worst.  Try this approach:

“…I focus on this one thing:  Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.  I press on…”

(Philippians 3:13 NLT)

No matter what season of life you currently find yourself in, there is no sense in living in your past.  You must graduate on to the next thing God has in store for you.  Even if your past holds no regrets or mistakes; (first of all, you’re fooling yourself, we ALL have something lingering from our past where we’d like a redo); you can’t live off your past victories either.  This may very well be one of if not the best “life” Scriptures:

“But forget all that-it is nothing compared to what I am going to do.  For I am about to do something new.  See, I have already begun!  Do you not see it?”

(Isaiah 43:18-19 NLT)

The point being, if you are so busy looking back, you’re going to miss what’s coming right at you!  Who wants to realize they’ve missed God because their past was at the forefront of their heart and mind instead of the present?  There is a reason why our eyes are in the front of our heads and not the back!